There’s one thing I’ve learned in this life. We should NEVER, be ashamed of who we are, and what experiences we have had, good and bad, to the point, we can’t have healthy and good relationships, like we may want, or crave to have.
We stay hidden away. Trapped in our minds and pain. Unable to love the way we were created to. It’s in those moments, we learn the most, and yet we fail to see that. We live in fear. We should acknowledge them, embrace them, learn from them, and grow from them. No matter what, or how embarrassing or bad, it may seem. We need to find a way to do it. The sooner, the better.
I have a very painful and embarrassing past. One I have struggled with, for many years, in a not, so good way. I did what I could, with what I had and knew. Being stubborn, I had to learn my lessons, over repeated behaviors, and experiences, until I understood. Not the best way, nor ideally, the healthy way, however, I did learn. I also learned how to talk, and use my voice, even if it was pen to paper sometimes, which is powerful to overcome hurt, pain and disappointments.
Silence kills. Silencing your voice, destroys you, and traps you, in turmoil, you don’t need. It sucks the life out of you. You can’t control what others do, or say, or how, they react to you or with you, and it’s hard to grasp that, and let it go, because it was never in your control to begin with.
However, those pieces of you, that they hurt and tainted, that you think are broken, they are not. They are absolutely still in you, hidden. Being so guarded, that you’re just not living anymore, in the way you were made to live this life. Because you’re trying to control, the one thing left that you can. It’s your love, that you’re guarding and protecting.
Love should be shared, freely. Everyones love is unique and important in this world. It is the essence, of each and every one of us. We just have to understand our experiences, and forgive, knowing, that NOBODY, can take pieces away from us.
They are you. They are still there. Look deep within, acknowledge them, and the hurt, pain, shame, and guilt, that you have placed on them. Find the quiet forgiveness you need, to give yourself. And love them again. Love those pieces of you, and embrace them again. Be gentle with yourself. You’re not perfect. And neither is anyone else.
Talk things out with yourself. Express yourself. Find your voice again. Bring them out of the darkness, you’ve hid them away in. Stand up for yourself, NOW, even though, you couldn’t then. You absolutely can, NOW. It’s never to late. Everything you’re carrying from the past, it all belongs to then. You’re living in the Now. Don’t waste this moment, because of what happened then. You could miss something great. Share it.
The love and beauty of what makes you, YOU, needs to be shared. It craves and yearns to be shared. So do yourself a favor. Set it all free and release it. The pain, hurt, and fear, of what may, or may not happen, or what has happened, is only hindering your progress, to what you are meant to truly accomplish, and fulfill, and to share with others. Don’t cut yourself short, and cheat yourself out of the life you deserve, and are destined for.
Inspirelations 