Sitting alone in this darkness,
That has become my mind.
Staring out the window, In the stillness,
Left feeling so confined.
I had become tattooed and chained.
By the words from your tongue.
Left alone, Heavily stained.
My soul was much to young.
You stripped away,
My self-worth, Layer by layer.
With all the hurtful things you said.
Repeating, Like a broken record player.
And in the silence, You were so dismissive.
Your rejection of me, Was so overwhelming.
Your excessive insecure ego, Forever bruised me.
Always leaving me, Self-doubting.
I searched to fill this emptiness.
In every man I knew.
This had become my sickness,
Because I was only finding you.
My body, My mind, My soul,
Had become a cutting board.
Left in tiny pieces, No longer was I whole.
And as I helplessly searched, For a life cord.
I was always coming up, Empty handed.
Left feeling so damaged and unloved.
My spirit slowly began, Drifting away.
As your demons, Danced in my blood.
Always wanting me, To come out to play.
All these toxic battles, Inside my head.
So many nights, I wished I were dead.
You drove a innocent girl insane.
With all this pain, What was your gain?
How our perceptions, Can be so deceiving.
When our reality, Is just misleading.
I should not have been a part.
Of the evil reigning inside,
Your own broken heart.
My self-respect, I will preserve.
My love, You never deserved.
I no longer seek, Your validation of me.
You still fail to see.
The woman, I turned out to be.
I searched for my light,
And I won your fight.
I found happiness and grace.
I found love, When I look in the mirror,
And see the reflection,
Of this beautiful face...
Inspirelations 