Sitting here, in this moment. The here. The now. Reflecting on all things in my life. The good, the bad, the in-betweens. There is one thing that keeps coming up. TIME. It's a blessing and a curse.
We never know when our time is going to be up. It's something we don't think about in those direct terms, so we live and walk through life, oblivious and unaware. Some live it on routine, day in and day out. Really not making the most out of it. Some live it selfishly, unaware of those around them, not really caring about their impact on others or the world. Some do a mixture of both. There are very few, that make the most out of it and understand the importance of each second. Each minute. Each moment and choice.
I've done all. I have lived every way possible in this life, at different points throughout my journey here. This week brought me back to an awareness though, that I have forgotten. The importance of time.
I've lived in the past. Replayed things over and over again, trying to make sense of things, most of my life. I also have lived in the future. Causing myself unnecessary suffering and anxiety over things that haven't even happened yet. Causing friction and resistance in my present. I've also lived in the moments. Embracing each and every second. Living through my heart.
This last week, has been a little bit of an eye opener for me. It has brought my past, present and future all together, in a matter of days and has brought me to my knees.
I've been living in the mental state of all the above mentioned, these last few days. And it has shown me things that I have failed to see. It has also shown me, who I am truly connected to and have been connected to and who I am not. Who is important and who is not. It has shown me who cares and who does not.
Those closest to me, know what I have been going through. They have reached out without me having to ask and have given me support and different perspectives and I thank them for that. There have also been others from my past, who have reached out, unknowingly, and have reminded me what kind of impact I have had on them. Which I never knew that impact but so needed to hear at this moment in time.
Which brings me to now. This moment. My time and presence has been taken for granted. I have been taking my time and moments that I have been given here and misplacing them. I have realized what is truly important to me and what isn't. And that it's time to start adjusting accordingly.
I don't want to waste any more time in my life. I want those I love and care about to know how important they are and how wanted they are in my life. The impact they have here. It's important everyone knows that and that they live a life of full of love, respect and compassion. Filled with memories of gratitude and not regret. So I ask you, how are you living? How are you showing up? What do you want and value with your time?
Inspirelations 